10 Things A Wolf Needs In Order To Succeed (Written By: Peter Vulić/Lupercal Tirenan)

1.) dreams, for they inspire us to ever greater things and give us meaning when all around is is dark.

2.) Ambition, for to be truly human means to constrain yourself by their rules. true wolves always seek to expand their family and hunting grounds so that the pups will be fed.

3.) A pack, for when winter comes the lone wolf, dies but the pack survives.

4.) Motivation, for our training is long and rewards are scarce, yet we must continue moving.

5.) Courage to do what must be done, not all things are black and white and sometimes a life must be taken in order to preserve it.

6.) Humility, to much ambition and self motivation resolves in arrogance and our eventual downfal. If we remember where we came from and the tests we passed than we will never succumb to it.

7.) Will, not the will of motivation to continue training, but the will to live and take the hits as they come. Whatever doesn't kill us makes us stronger.

8.) The sixth sense of longing, we all long to move and to achieve and we all long to play our part in nature. We all know we wish success and the longing hurts us if we do not succeed in what we are trying to achive. There will always be another deer that needs hunting and another alpha that needs challenging.

9.) Anger, for we were all scared by the world in our own way and although anger and hate are products of human imagination, they are true emotions which lend us strength in times of need and although we should let them control us we should always know when they are present.

10.) A wider horizon, no single wolf, man, god or other can give you the answers you seek. The truth is you will never find what you seek but you will seek and be rewarded none the less, do not be afraid to expose yourself to new surroundings and people. For the more experience you have the more you count.

The Internet, and Us

During the period in which I have been waiting to move to Utah I have realized some interesting changes in myself. These changes have become the fabric that has changed the way I look at what we call the internet. I find for people like us, it seems to look a bit like an act of desperation to communicate. In some cases I feel still that the internet diminishes the experience of finding others like ourselves.

I speak of this from experience. I feel different being with them, I see it, I can breathe it, smell it, it is almost like an intoxication in some cases. I feel drawn to being with others and I yearn to be near them at all times. I will not lie when I say yes I have grown distant and tired of the life I once half heartedly followed. In many cases I feel like it was meant to be this way, I cannot deny the part of me that needs every aspect and not half of what I should have. I am only pushing to be complete.

I wish others felt as strongly as I do. I do not speak of those I will be living with, but the ones who still can't see that this internet fad is becoming dull and jaded. It seems as lifeless as ever with the over saturation of the people who try to fit into our group. Sometimes it seems like 90% of what I see is just that, but I try to keep an open mind and open heart to the possibilities. Even than I still can't help but trust my instincts, and they are becoming me, they are leading me to what I need and yearn for.

I write this today because I feel I must, yes there is a lack of energy and soul in this entry but it is because I am saving. I am holding it in for the final break, the last piece of what I was searching for. I feel it come closer everyday and even as I time and time again tell myself soon, I forget on occasion that time is irrelevant.

To the Brothers and Sisters whom which understand in some form what I hint and speak of, know that even in my over emotional status I can say it will come. It has too, it is part of what we are, it is the fabric in which our lives are fully lived through.

To the newcomers whom may not understand yet. Keep moving and remain positive. For there is proof of greatness in each and everyone. You just have to find it.

As for me, well this is just the end of one chapter, and the beginning of a new and exciting one.

This is for all who may need it:

Recent Events

I am posting back here to catch up on what was missed for the last few months.

1. A bunch of us brothers got together in Colorado and it was very much an amazing experience.

2. I graduated on October 1st. I now currently hold a Masters Degree.

3. I am moving to Utah to start my life in what some would perceive as a pack. The current assumption is I will be leaving a week from today.

The Pack

I am your brother as you are my brother.

As we are lone wolves, we are family.

As we are together, our heart is full.

As we are separated, we are empty.

As we continue to trust, our bond becomes love.

As we continue to love, we become one.

As we become one, we become two.

As we are two, we are are free.

As we are free, we are equal.

And as we are equal, we will survive.

Because I am your brother and you are my brother.

And together we are strong.

For this is the wild, and this is The Pack.

And strength in numbers, is the strength of one.

The Art Of Patience, And The Times Of Struggle

In the depths of ourselves we wait, we wait for the opportunity to be free.

In this time of opportunity we craft, we build, and we grow.

In this time of patience we learn from each of ourselves as days go by.

As the days go by we begin to see the light within ourselves.

As the days go by we begin to see the dark within ourselves.

As we are revealed to ourselves we are than revealed to others.

As we are revealed to others we make bonds and burn bridges.

In this time of patience we become who and what we are.

In this time of enlightenment, our own enemy is the one that is seen through the golden mirror.

In this time of struggle we wait.

In this time of patience we struggle.

As the days go by, as the time gets closer, and as we reach for the stars.

Our fate, created by our own subconscious will comes alive.

For we are the ones who search.

We are the ones who move.

And we are the ones who will become…….Free at last.

Unconditional Love

It seems there has been much trouble with me these last few days, for I have watched the world turn upside down by my own hands. I have had the unfortunate role of creating some of the most horrifying things, yet I have watched beautiful things come out of it. I will admit to all that I have much fear, for those that I once gave my unconditional love to left me to silence.

Even in the silence of my "family" I still see and feel myself dying for them, I cannot say anything for sure but I feel as if they would watch in shock and horror to the act, they may not know how to respond.

As I wept in sorrow from what I had created, I seemingly pushed away a brother who I hold very dear in my heart. I can only explain my love for him with words, but even in these words it will truly never be understood. I pushed him away, I pushed in fear, he told me he was to protect me and in a sense he did because in pushing him away I see the errors of my ways, I see that my current state has made me vulnerable and even influenced.

I let influence of the past get in the way of the one trying to protect me, I thought maybe I would in the end be protecting him, but now I see it, now I must grab it, and so now I must tell all this.

Turn to those you love during hard times, the love must be mutual, the heart must be felt as much as the heart gives. Reach and extend your hand to those who fall. Reach and grab the extended hand when you fall. If you make a mistake, make amends.

Always remember this, do not throw away blindly the unconditional love of another, pick it up and accept the love, for in the end you may find that you may unconditionally love them.

Home

It is about that time to vent about something that has been on my mind for months now, and this time the topic is about "Home".

In my heart there is a hole.

It is a hole of great magnitude.

I feel a deep longing to be in a place.

This place feels real.

This place feels right.

This place feels like home.

I have come to the conclusion in this chapter of my life that it is time to move away from where I am now, to where I feel is home. I have grown tired of where I am now and so it is time to break free from this confining place and embrace a new start.

I must admit I have had dreams of this place, dreams that have spanned not only from back in my childhood, but even more now.

I speak of this now because I hope one day someone will see this and maybe just maybe feel what I feel without me having to give a descriptive writing regarding what this hole feels like. Maybe just maybe the individual will do something like I will be doing very soon, if not I urge others to just think about it.

I feel home is a very important thing in our lives, it is where we feel right, it is where we feel complete, and it is where we can truly be happy.

Because to me:

Home is where the heart is.

Home is where the mind is.

Home is where the soul is.

Home is where the body should be.