I speak of this from experience. I feel different being with them, I see it, I can breathe it, smell it, it is almost like an intoxication in some cases. I feel drawn to being with others and I yearn to be near them at all times. I will not lie when I say yes I have grown distant and tired of the life I once half heartedly followed. In many cases I feel like it was meant to be this way, I cannot deny the part of me that needs every aspect and not half of what I should have. I am only pushing to be complete.
I wish others felt as strongly as I do. I do not speak of those I will be living with, but the ones who still can't see that this internet fad is becoming dull and jaded. It seems as lifeless as ever with the over saturation of the people who try to fit into our group. Sometimes it seems like 90% of what I see is just that, but I try to keep an open mind and open heart to the possibilities. Even than I still can't help but trust my instincts, and they are becoming me, they are leading me to what I need and yearn for.
I write this today because I feel I must, yes there is a lack of energy and soul in this entry but it is because I am saving. I am holding it in for the final break, the last piece of what I was searching for. I feel it come closer everyday and even as I time and time again tell myself soon, I forget on occasion that time is irrelevant.
To the Brothers and Sisters whom which understand in some form what I hint and speak of, know that even in my over emotional status I can say it will come. It has too, it is part of what we are, it is the fabric in which our lives are fully lived through.
To the newcomers whom may not understand yet. Keep moving and remain positive. For there is proof of greatness in each and everyone. You just have to find it.
As for me, well this is just the end of one chapter, and the beginning of a new and exciting one.
This is for all who may need it:
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